Date: 01-February-2008, 09:54 Subj: Prone Filter:    Public Tags: musing

Nice, fun, random thing about me is that I always say what I mean at the moment, based on my current accumulation of knowledge, and I always gather more knowledge which causes me to change my current position.

Saying things to me like, "But you said..."
Well, sure. My mind, it changes. My positions, they shift.
Ten years ago I called myself a deist (I think).
Ten years before that I wore the whole armor of an Evangelical Christian.

Bringing up a person's past seems useless to me, that was a snap shot of a person when it currently does not matter. "Two years ago, you stated that you believed..."

*blank stare*

I guess in the context of trying to make someone a liar that could be valid, but something like belief and value? Those aren't fucking constant, and if they are, you're the one losing out.

Say you feel strongly about [environmental issue of choice] does the fact that you drove a [pollution causing automobile] five years ago make you a lying two-faced jackal? And you felt passionately about both?

News flash, that's humanity and changing currents.

And if you've done and felt the same way your whole life, in my book, that makes you boring and uninteresting. Someone else might favor you; I won't. People who never change their minds, hearts, or attitudes spark no flames in me. Something should change, for better or worse, for wiser or more foolish.

I take a person on their current value system. I keep checking their 'temperature,' to keep up with them. Today's asshole can be tomorrow's guru. Yesterday's libertarian is today's communist. Ideals are fluid and do not make the person. The person, at his or her core will be the same libertarian even when they are a communist. Your personality isn't rooted in your beliefs.

So what have I changed?

I don't think being so focused on music theory and ear training lessons is the way to go. I want a more loose practice structure. More "fucking around" on my guitar and less, "trying to get it right."

I think learning too much music theory will make me less creative (but I still plan to learn it later). I think too much 'getting it right' will make the same beast out of me. I want to just go to 5 year old with a pot and spoon mentality.

Also, I'm killing the metronome. I think it might make me sound like a robot. I'll pick it up later, when 50 bpm isn't a challenging pace.

Yeah, all that above BS because I went from, "I want to learn music theory," to "Fuck music theory. Lets jam."

Check with me next week. I might have something new.

Fuck, by March, I might not even be playing guitar.
know thyself

That's me, and I love this bitch.

"There are different "stages" or "states" of mania. For example, a minor state may involve increased creativity, wit, gregariousness, and ambition."

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User: nysidra Date: 02-February-2008, 01:59 (UTC) Subj: (no subject)

Thank you!

Yeah, I'm not going to give up the theory and timing completely, but like today, I dedicated a whole hour to fucking around. Strumming, playing a single string, noise making, 'jamming'.

It sounded horrid, *laughs* but I took the advice of something I read and just listened, got familiar with the notes, and let it be fun. I think, for one day at least, I should let practice be more about playing and getting familiar, more so than yesterday, which was all fingering practice and chords.

I tried tuning it again and just before I got that glimmer of despair, I thought, "so it's out of tune. Who's listening but you anyway?!"

It's a balance, and I've currently been swinging from once extreme to the next on how I want to spend time on my guitar.

Thanks for the "2 years to suck" bit... I truly appreciate it. ^_^

It's almost like I have to concentrate on having fun though. I can over think stuff. A lot. *laughs*

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