Date: 25-February-2008, 09:39 Subj: Running Fantasy Filter:    Public

I have a "fake" problem.

And by this point, it really is a problem, fake as it may be.

I like to create running fantasies. Maybe they last a few hours, maybe a few days. I even had one that had the staying power of a week.

Regardless, I have them, and they are my waking dreams.

If they are super nice, I write them down. I don't share them because for some reason fantasy seems to grow out of popular fiction... all of which is not interesting to me, but I get it. Seriously, and I wish I could play along, but my mind just doesn't work like that. I prefer to make up strangers in a strange world.

Regardless: Everything I've thought of lately has died on the vine.

Boring. Uninteresting. Dull. Blegh. Snorefest.

In my fucking brain! COME ON BIANCA!!

So, my fake problem is that I'm having a hard time turning myself on.
As fake problems go, this one is fairly sizeable.

My Love mentioned to me, "Stop messing with humans."
"Yeah, I need to get back to that."
"I never stopped."

Well, I went back, and you know what happened? Yawn fest. Oooh, dark scary demon from the nether world... *yawn / stretch*
Why would you even care? What are you getting out of this? How in the world would these two end up together anyway?

For a second I was thinking about this guy getting a little action from a male demon. That was pretty wild for all of 5 minutes. Then I was like, "Boo. That's going no where."

I'm going to start brainstorming for interesting stuff. There has to be a wire in here somewhere that still sets off a spark.

But for the record I've exhausted all the D/s relationships that don't bore me. Demons with their beautiful leathery wings are so far removed from reality that I don't see the point or the allure anymore. This pains me! It hurts my dark heart! I'm going to have my demonic slut card revoked! *where is it, anyway*

Um... what else did I like? Can't remember.

Maybe there's something in the way of the East. Machines, tentacles, and ... other completely off the wall shit.

*laughs*

Update: Current resolution includes giving it up. I'm going to spend my mental downtime catching up on my book reading.

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